Whenever I accomplish something or finally get something I've always wanted I never feel a sense of accomplishment. Its like...ok what do I do now?Where do I go from here?
It feels like I can never enjoy an achievement for what it is. I always have to look for the next goal and the next chance to fail or succeed. One thing though, I'm glad I've learned to do over the last year and a half is how to react to failure. I think this comes with getting knocked down and trying really hard and failing enough times that giving up just doesn't make sense...its the ultimate admission of defeat.
Its like when I started job interviews for grad and intern positions in my 2nd last year of uni. I just couldn't get interviews...mainly thanks to how prestigous the University of Western Australia (we're like 80th in world rankings) is not. But when I did and I finally got the intern that I wanted then the job offer I wanted...it kinda feels like where do I go from here. I just want to start working so I can aim at something again.
I've got the JSDA Series 2 (test to be a stockbroker) in a bit. Failure is not an option...dissapointing the guys who believed in me enough to give me a chance that few others are getting is just not something I want to think about.
My goodness that was disjointed...
RANT OVER
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